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~ The Fire that Still Burns ~ Can you stand to look at me now that I have more scars? Am I still as beautiful to you now as I was once upon a time when I knew you loved me? What have we become? A shadow of our former selves…a rippled reflection of our shattered souls. The years haven’t been kind but they haven’t snuffed out the fire that still burns deep inside for you… I never thought I would fail you like I seem to have done. I have never wanted to hurt anyone… Broken hearts have come and went…faded into the pages of yesterday, But one thing has never changed and that is my love for you. I am still fig

Torn… Torn a part in every way… I was waiting for you to talk to me then he had something to say. His kindness shines like the light of a thousand stars, but it illuminates all my flaws and scars. Ones that you gave to me, Haunted by your memory. Left alone by you so many times, Condemned to death by you my executioner for all my crimes. I said I would wait but how long would you let me shiver in the cold? I was searching for you then he found my hand to hold. I am so scared to lose you although I hardly know why, You say that you love me but you won’t even try. Try to comfort or try to be there, I look for the tendernes

-A Sorrowful Rant - What does it matter if I cry? One more set of tears shining on my face won’t hurt. What does it matter if I want to scream? I have been screaming inside so long that I no longer have a voice. What does it matter if I can’t decide? I never had a choice. What does it matter if I die? I am already dead inside, living with no meaning to my life. What does it matter if I bleed when I am already bleeding? There must be something to stop the aching needing! There has to be a way to hide from the insidious memories, some place they won’t find me. Blood stained walls and unfamiliar halls, But the laughter I know

-Underneath- Come to me again and once more breathe your ice into my soul. My enemy my friend, as you can see I am still learning to be whole. Your claws yearn to touch my skin, and you’re dying to taste the crimson life beneath. Your eyes that see right through me, oh what do you see? It’s my belief… That there’s nothing underneath… Smile arrogantly It’s just what you do. And laugh at me like you will because everything you said came true. Oh how I missed hating you. Do you really want to hurt me? Or perhaps you’re the only one to truly see me for what I am under the surface, just beneath…

 Until the Rivers Run Red The light was once shining, the dark was right there, now the angel is weeping the demon's despair. The order turned chaos, the voices scream in my head and I can's stop the whispers, Until the rivers run red... Loneliness sets in so empty, silence so loud that it frightens, insanity laughs, and the grip tightens. Chains of deceit wrapped around my weary feet, with one fatal pull I come crashing down, a silent scream my only sound, as my wings are ripped off and shredded, the storms clouds roll in, so let it pour down its dread, let the cracks spread through my heart, Until the rivers run red.

Another rant from the void...   We're so very tired... and it's so very dark... the voices echo loudly sounds loud sounds! paranoia sets in, oh is it here to stay?! anxiety pounds like a heartbeat in our head drowning out rational thought... and we're never really safe no matter who tells us honestly we are even you dear sir... Happiness is written in disappearing ink, and pain is written in blood so tangible and real, I've forgotten how to think... oh I wish I didn't feel! one more cut.. one more hour.. the nightmares and shadows come and devour...my soul.. or what's left of it..I don't know.. I don't know...did I ever have

- Haunted by the Past - I am haunted by the question why, and what could, and would and should've been. Trying to run forward but the past digs into me, dragging me back into the sea memories. Trying to move on but its been so very long, trying to let go of you like you want me to, but not forget you, because that is something I can never do. Haunted by the past, begging to be freed at last. Moving forward but looking backward, because it won't let me turn around, so I scream as I fall back to the ground. Empty hopes I stab and they bleed, trying to forget this cursed need, I want my soul to spread its wings finally freed. I

- Holding Back - I've lost so many friends, sitting here watching the horizon ominously waiting for the end of all ends. Trying to keep myself from the knife, staring at the hell and broken pieces I call my life. Trying to hold back tears, trying to fight back fears, trying not to think I've wasted all these years. Trying to smile for him, and not show him my agony, let the pain begin, I'm screaming deep inside of me. Let me have just one, a little sweet release, so maybe I'll quit shaking and the burning tears will cease. Am I strong enough to hold back from the only comfort I have? I don't want to hurt him or make him sad. I

- Then It's War You Shall Have - I see betrayal all around, who's a spy? make no sound. Who can I trust? So it's the final showdown, all in, win or bust. Poisoned against me, my own family. I hate everything you stand for, everything you've become I abhor. Though that it's come to this it makes me sad, you've hurt me for the last time, almost drove me mad, So if it's war you want then war you shall have! I draw on buried strength from inside, as the sides divide. The schism that has cut us all in two, the way it hurts me, I hope it hurts you, Don't make me make you pay for all that you do. All these culminating frustrations,